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Post by Jenn on Aug 27, 2012 10:26:41 GMT -5
things that i've been doing over the summer: - keeping children occupied.
- moving to a new place... a house. like, four walls i don't share with anyone else kind of house house. with a yard that has a fence around it. boyfriend keeps leaving the humane society's website up for me to wander past. i think he wants a dog. blergh. i'm not ready for that just yet.
- work with the paranormal group locally, in the state, and on a national level at this point. again... blergh.
- put almost 10,000 miles on the car driving to locations in the region to meet with other teams and groups and clubs who investigate, put in appearances as the "ohio representative for the national paranormal society" (it sounds so important, sheesh) and spending nights stumbling around in the dark with IR cameras at locations like waverly hills, trans allegehny lunatic asylum, blah blah blah.
- website maintenance (well, aside from the old pb4pb board... obviously)... built the nps website from scratch, which sucked a little bit, because it was something that if, were someone to get paid for, would have netted a few bucks.
- public speaking stuff. that's been horrible. i've found that i'm pretty nervous in front of groups of people, and it isn't really getting much easier.
you know, the most messed up thing about the way this whole thing has come about, is that at the bottom of it all, i'm not even sure that i believe that there _is_ life after death, and here i am bumbling all over the place, attempting to capture what some may call evidence that it exists. I've been stuffing my head with particle physics, string theory, engineering concepts, both conceptual and hard sciences in an effort to bring paranormal research out of the fluff and woo categories and into a more standardized and recognized field, so that the things that are known to _not_ be paranormal can be cataloged for others to reference, and we can begin to move forward with new theory and research. what direction does this stuff look to take? who knows? but it'd be nice to see people quit calling pictures of dust and cigarette smoke evidence of aunt betsy coming around for a visit. |
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Post by puma on Aug 27, 2012 13:54:06 GMT -5
LOL My friend is doing the opposite...She lost duck tape one night in a dark farm house with no electricity and it had to be the ghosts. NO it most likely was the retard of a husband she has.....If you are ever in the far east parts of Ohio let me know. I'm only an hour or so from the border.
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Post by Jenn on Aug 27, 2012 15:38:03 GMT -5
argh! i've been over far east ohio like... six times over the past two months! youngstown, ashtabula, cortland, east liverpool, columbiana, east palestine. tiny town after tiny town. then cleveland, columbus, akron, new philly, mentor. if i had known you were that close i would have made arrangements to visit!
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Post by puma on Aug 28, 2012 0:25:33 GMT -5
YEah...Youngstown is an hour and east liverpool isn't too far(I used to go to the star bank in e.liverpool). Next time!
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Post by Jenn on Aug 31, 2012 0:57:30 GMT -5
i've had to start wearing a ring on my wedding ring finger (ya know... the third one over there on the left hand), when i go out on these trips. i don't know what it is about being in the dark with strangers, but it is like they assume that it means there is an open invitation to get up to hijinks.
wtf.
creepy gross.
wandering around in the woods with some dude covered in deer musk (why the fuck am i doing this?!) while he talks about track patterns and territory range and stuff to learn the proper "bigfoot hunting" techniques is not an offer to do it like mammals, yo.
and as an aside, if there is some kind of proper technique, why hasn't bigfoot been spotted? like, for real?
second aside, some dude was just killed out west trying to hoax a big foot sighting. hit by a car wearing a suit on the interstate.
fantastic.
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Post by adrenola on Aug 31, 2012 10:55:17 GMT -5
No one has seen a big foot because we're shape shifters.
(I just made that up, but it seems like a good plot for a story line)
Oh hey... did you get my last letter about Major Lingo calling it quits before the PB went down?
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Post by Jenn on Sept 2, 2012 7:02:09 GMT -5
i heard some "investigator" a few weeks ago throwing around theories on the big foot thing that had my eyebrows attempting to crawl up into my hair line. sometimes i wonder what the heck kind of kool aid these people are drinking.
1. sasquatch is actually an alien, or an alien hybrid, and they can sense our technology, so they know to hide.
2. bigfoot and other cryptid sightings are actually glimpses of the ghosts of giant prehistoric animals.... ghosts that leave footprints.
no one requires proof or anything to back up any outlandish idea anymore.
yeah, i got your message, and that stinks! when i get out to jerome, i'm going to have to find some m.l. audio to take with me, so i can set it up in the caves like a trigger, to see if it stirs up any "residual activity." if nothing else, i'm sure the rocks will be pleased to resonate again.
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Post by Jenn on Sept 2, 2012 7:17:02 GMT -5
i've spent the last few days in a kind of a funk.
there are times (not too often), when i feel as if i'm almost operating on a different plane of existence from the rest of reality. almost as if i'm moving faster than, or slower than, everything else around me, and interacting with other people becomes a trial. I don't think that anyone notices, really, so its all in my head, but it just feels like everything is just a little bit... off.
my boyfriend will be talking to me and i'll be listening, but i have trouble keeping track of the conversation, or it'll seem like the lady at the bank is moving through molasses while processing my transaction, or my mind will be racing so fast my thoughts will be tripping over one another and becoming this jumbly mess even i can't make sense of.
the only thing that seems to help when i get like this is to retreat from everything for a little while, spend time in my head, in solitary pursuits, in my journal, and wait for my brain to slow down to a more manageable level. it normally doesn't take too long to right itself, which is a good thing.
i'm already starting to feel more like myself. maybe i'm bi-polar or something, but i really don't think so. i don't feel down or depressed at all... and i don't have those characteristic highs that you see in typical manic/depressive patients. its just that sometimes my brain decides to slip a gear or something.
ugh... i'm talking too much. i need to sleep, i have another monster shift to do tonight, but my mind is still whirring even though my eyes feel like they've been dipped in lead and covered in sand.
perhaps i'll sleep soon... perhaps.
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Post by atom on Sept 13, 2012 19:20:23 GMT -5
I don't believe in ghosts or an afterlife but I'd be interested in going on a "ghost hunt" or whatever. I think having someone there who does not at all believe in that stuff would give some credibility to the group. When you've got a bunch of grown ass adults screaming and "shushing" over creeks in the floorboards it's hard to take them seriously. I like looking up weird paranormal stuff for fun or when I want to freak myself out. The only one that seems possible or plausible to me is aliens, I guess. I get super paranoid at night and worry that an alien is watching me through the window from outside... or that I'll see one walking by the glass door. Fuck that.    I'd shit myself right then and there. |
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Post by Jenn on Sept 17, 2012 19:56:18 GMT -5
the more that i actually sit down and begin digging into alien and ufo information (not the cray cray "they got to me and now i'm a psychic" crap but documented ufo sightings, and such, the more interesting it gets. we really don't know what we don't know.
i've always thought it conceited of us to assume we were the only intelligent (debatable) things in the universe. but who knows what another life form could even want?
i went to the website you pulled those images from, and they have some splendid fakes on there, and some good examples of what i'd call paraeldolia. but some of the images really did make me pause for a second and kind of tilt my head to the side like a dog all "huh?" style.
how would you even investigate an alien claim though? sky watch? i have no idea. maybe just giving someone a chance to tell their story would be enough for them.
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Post by Jenn on Sept 17, 2012 20:01:02 GMT -5
another problem i have is that technology is so freaking advanced now that i can't really take any "evidence" seriously, because with a few free programs on my computer and a couple of hours i can create evidence that looks pretty convincing, at least at first glance.
so you end up spending more time disproving stuff than anything else. people are sending three or four images a week for "analysis", and they, so far, have all been cases of paraedolia, dust on the lens or in the focal zone, or outright fakes. makes for a great "image analysis".
sheesh.
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